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Saturday, January 17th, 2009
3:20 pm

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Sunday, December 7th, 2008
1:48 pm
Salvia Research Study

The University of California San Francisco researchers are recruiting individuals with knowledge of Salvia divinorum or substances containing Salvinorin A for a brief, anonymous web-based survey. No personal identifying information, electronic or otherwise will be collected. The survey takes approximately 7 minutes to complete.  

Information is available at:  




Participant Eligibility:

- 18 years of age or older               

- Have used Salvia divinorum or substances containing Salvinorin A


California Poison Control System                    

UCSF CHR Approved, HIPAA compliant               

CHR approval # H11246-33229-01

Monday, April 28th, 2008
7:07 pm
Research survey
 I am a graduate student studying the effects of benzodiazepine drugs.  Benzodiazepines are also known as the minor tranquilizers.  Valium, Clonapin, Ativan, Xanax etc. are some of the most common.  If you, or someone you know well, have used, or are using these drugs, please fill out the survey that applies.  If you know anyone in either of these categories (user, or know someone who is a user) please encourage them to take the survey as well.  Your participation is voluntary, fully confidential, and greatly appreciated.

For those who are using or have used benzodiazepines, please complete this survey:



For those who know someone who has used or is currently using benzodiazapines, please complete this survey:


Friday, March 28th, 2008
12:52 am
shroom hunting
Anyone know of a good place to find psychedelic mushrooms in upstate New York. In the Westchester area, the Catskill mountain region. I am from Long Island, NY so anywhere in this region would be great. I have done a bit of research but I really want to speak to someone who has real knowledge on shroom hunting.

Thursday, February 14th, 2008
6:17 pm
here's on for ya

so last summer i got my hands on some great acid for a friend and I. It was going to be his first trip ever so I hunted around for something good. I traded some of my artwork for some of the most potent acid I could find, and headed over to his house to take the trip.

At first nothing happened, and he thought it was bullshit. Then he sat down on a tack that was in in his chair by accident. It hurt, so he went to the bathroom to check it out. A few moments later heard him calling to me "hey man, not to be gay or anything, but could you come and take a look at my ass and tell me how bad it is"...so I went in to check on him and then I heard the most terrifying scream I've ever heard out of the guy...

I entered the bathroom to see him staring at the floor intensely, sweat pouring down his face. It looked like his trip had just began, and simultaneously, a GIANT cockroach had crawled out from under his dryer to say hello. We live in NYC and the roaches here are huge...

now I am not exaggerating, but he grabbed for a can of raid and sprayed it at the roach...the roach JUMPED over the spray and at him, and he threw the can at it. It tried to run away and eventually he smashed it to death with the raid can, but then he crumpled to the floor and started screaming, seeing roaches everywhere, the beginning of his first trip. I had begun tripping at this point, and had to pick up the bug and throw it in the toilet. I kept getting creeped that it's legs were going to extend out around the tissue i was using to pick it up and stab into me. I eventually got it in the toilet and flushed it, but for the rest of the trip we just saw bugs everywhere, and ended up barricading his room in order to keep the bugs out...

there's more to the story but I'll just shut up for now..
Thursday, September 27th, 2007
12:20 pm
Hi all, I'm new here:)

Seems salvia has become much more popular recently - I've only tried it once with some dried leaf and it didn't do anything.  I think I need to be trying out the 10x and 40x extract.  Someone even mentioned I should try and vape with it but it's not for first-time salvia trippers so who knows?!?! 

You should check out our Podcast, we talk a bit about Salvia and other entheogens but the main focus obviously is Cannabis....you can here them by going to Dopefiend.co.uk and checking out all the shows that we have there.  I do a couple of shows 'BB's Lounge / BB's Bungalow' but I think you guys will especially like the main 'Dopecast' which comes out every single week.  There's also shows there on Psychedelics, music and growing!

Stay stoned,
Thursday, September 20th, 2007
5:47 pm
Ukraine in salvia
Lately, salvia divinorum became very popular in Ukraine: lots of people smoke it, grow it. Besides, such things as peyote are totally legal in Ukraine - you can buy the plants even in flower-shops. Entheogens become very popular cause of their legality. I personaly enjoy salvia, cratom, peyote and such.
Friday, July 13th, 2007
10:44 am
Sorry guys: I just realized how little the font is on my second last comment: this is just a re-post.
I've experienced some of the best and worst times of my life while I was trippin` out on E.
The first time I tried it I was in my apartment with my ex girlfriend:: we popped 2 and 1/2 red mercedes and to tell you the truth it really didn't do anything atall to me. Besides piss me off that is; and I had the most undeniable urge to destroy anything in my house that was the color green.
They must of been some really kife pills.
I didn't get my hands on it again for about 2 years: but when I did, boy did I ever.
I did almost every single day in the summer;
and it really messed with me, but I loved every second of it.
And I still do.
But I have a few questions: hopefully someone can answer them for me.

Almost every time I take the pills I throw up, you know the feeling-right before your high hits you you feel a little nauseous, well that happens to me-only I actually get sick. ; a friend of mine suggested to me that maybe I'm allergic to the dye, but even when I take the white ones it happens. Does anyone know why this might be happening?

And it seems to me that it takes 3 to 4 pills to get me high now a'days- and if I take only one or two- I just get really really angry at everyone. I don't even get high. I just get pissed off. Why is that?
Thursday, July 12th, 2007
8:54 pm
My personal favorites::
1. Weed, because quite frankly-you just can't go wrong with Mary Jane.
its cheap, its safe-its easy to come by. And I don't have to worry about an overdose, a hangover, a panic attack, an addiction or a comedown.
Just a mild case of the munchies. :) Gotta love it.

2. Any and all phycadelics- salvia paodi, acid, high quantities of MDMA. Everything about them is appealing to me. I looove acid, so much!
Just the very thought of seeing sounds and hearing smells gets me all excited. Acid is joy, to say the very least. The only downer, in my opinion- is when you have a bad trip-you can't stop it. When I'm high on hallusingents I have no perception what so ever of whats real and whats not. And sometimes that can be really scary. The first time I did it can deffinitely be considered a bad trip. I was at home-alone; (you can see the problem already- d o n ' t do it alone!) and I was in the kitchen when the high hit me. I had a tiled floor in that apartment and I was so drawn to the ground, I couldn't stop staring. In each and every tile of my floor- I saw a bad memory from my life in the past: (and i've had some pretty fucked up shit happen to me) anyway; it was playing like a movie. In every tile; I relived a traumatizing experiance like it was happening all over again. I hated it. But the bright side is I haven't had a trip like that sense; and god do I ever hope it never happens again.

3. Ecstasy :: The love drug, is just simply that. The love drug. And I love it. :)
Some of my best highs came off of these pills. I especially love when it fucks with my vision and makes everything I see shake.
Although its never really made me horny. It really just makes me social.

4. Cocaine : I love that mellowed out feeling; just sitting with my friends, talking about nothing all night. Can't beat that.

5. Real honey oil. -self explanatory. Its such a happy natural high.

6. Hash,whenever I go to get a new tattoo or piercing, I make sure I smoke alot of hash before and after. It just. numbs me.

7. Meth : Its not my drug of choice, but I like how it makes the time fly by. Its the best rave drug in my opinion.

As for prescription drugs, their really not my bag. As a matter of fact I think their complete bullshit.
Im not putting down on anyone who's into that sort of stuff, it really just doesn't do it for me.
But whatever floats your goat..

As for crack-never again, its just a tease.

Heroin? Never, I'll never put my hands on a needle drug.

I've done a bunch of shit I'm not to proud of. But I'm not getting into that-this is just a list of my personal favorites,
Sooo, add me as a friend if you share a comment interest. 

Yours truly-K. <3
7:19 pm

I've experienced some of the best and worst times of my life while I was trippin` out on E.
The first time I tried it I was in my apartment with my ex girlfriend:: we popped 2 and 1/2 red mercedes and to tell you the truth it really didn't do anything atall to me. Besides piss me off that is; and I had the most undeniable urge to destroy anything in my house that was the color green.
They must of been some really kife pills.
I didn't get my hands on it again for about 2 years: but when I did, boy did I ever.
I did almost every single day in the summer;
and it really messed with me, but I loved every second of it.
And I still do.
But I have a few questions: hopefully someone can answer them for me.

Almost every time I take the pills I throw up, you know the feeling-right before your high hits you you feel a little nauseous, well that happens to me-only I actually get sick. ; a friend of mine suggested to me that maybe I'm allergic to the dye, but even when I take the white ones it happens. Does anyone know why this might be happening?

And it seems to me that it takes 3 to 4 pills to get me high now a'days- and if I take only one or two- I just get really really angry at everyone. I don't even get high. I just get pissed off. Why is that?

Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
4:11 pm
Lucy in the sky with fungus.
7 years ago I tried mushrooms. I hated it. I won't talk about that experience. A couple weeks ago I tried acid...that was great, I won't talk about that...there weren't enough people tripping along with me. Last night I ate some killer mushrooms...I'll talk about that because I was tripping along with about 7 other people at the same time. It was a crazy, beautiful, amazing experience that I am afraid to repeat again...and my vision is still a bit weird. So I went over to the hippy hill, where a dude sold me a 1.5 grams of fungus for 13 bucks. Then I ran into another "friend" who I've seen around quite a bit and he treated me to 2 black-as-night stems. He then asked me to hang out with him so we can trip out together. I can understand why he did that now. Tripping alone is really nowhere near the amazing experience that it can be with a few other people. Giggling, looking at earth move, trees talking to you. I swear we kept reading each other's minds! I would think of something quietly, then someone would say EXACTLY what I was just thinking about literally 2 seconds ago. I would lift my leg, while looking at the sky, and a dog would pass through the passage I had just opened for it. Keep in mind, I was looking at the stars the entire time and couldn't see shit else. After the giggling part wore off, my hearing became even more in-tuned. Keep in mind, the entire time I'm there by the haystacks, we're smoking hash and weed the entire freakin time too. It was pretty crazy and I'm not sure when the next time I'm gonna do that again is going to be. But I am sure that it's not going to be ANY freaking time soon. Anyways, my first acid story is quite interesting too but I'm not going to go into it. My first coke story is REALLY fucked up, so maybe next time. Goodnight kids!

Current Mood: calm
Saturday, March 10th, 2007
7:06 am
Coke rush
My rush with coke was to split a 1/4g with my girlfriend - she would fix hers and in the midst of her rush I would lick her to her orgasm, which never took long at all. Meanwhile, I would be excited from her orgasm and she would start to slowly suck me while I readied the fix for me....just seconds before I would cum, I would slam the shot and cum so hard I would almost passout. My girlfriend would continue to suck as I shot my load, until I couldn't stand the dual rush and orgasm....I still get hard just thinking of the rush....even when doing something simple like driving to the grocery store...

Current Mood: satisfied
Monday, June 26th, 2006
3:39 am
My first rave experience...
I'm going to post this from my journal...

Over the weekend, I had a friend, "B," drive me to a rave. Strangely enough, even going there, I did not want to try ecstasy, as the only friend I was with, B, is a stoner who I do not trust. This isn't to say that stoners are untrustworthy, of course, as some of my most trusted friends happen to enjoy marijuana. I just don't trust B, as we were once at a party which I got far too drunk at. He acted like the friend he is... by taking pictures of me, showing them to everyone in school, and recounting the most embarassing things I did throughout the night. I considered him one of my best friends before that incident, and I've been fairly pissed at him ever since - he simply does not know it. As the Sicilians said, "revenge is a dish best served cold," and to simply confront B about how upset he made me so many months ago would be clumsy and ineffective. No, my revenge must be far more cold, calculated, and discreet than that.

When we got to the rave, B expected that I knew how to find ecstasy. I had kind of told him that it would be easy to find, I will admit - but that was a true statement. All I had to do was talk to people on the dance floor until one of them asked me if I needed "e-bombs." Take this as a note, kids: all you need to do to find ecstasy is to make small-talk. Ask if who you're talking to goes raving often, ask where they got those cool glowsticks, hell, ask them for some "candy" if you need to. It isn't hard.

After buying three ecstasy pills for $50, B led me to the bathroom, where he wanted to take the ecstasy with me. Initially, I refused - he had been stressing that we were not going to be at the rave for very long, and I saw taking ecstasy right before leaving a rave to be a waste of a perfectly good substance. Also, I will admit, I was somewhat nervous, as I have not tried ecstasy. Did I really want to go this next step after pot?

B responded to my uneasiness by nagging at me. He reminded me that I had wanted to try E (which is true), that I had been the one to find out about the rave (which is true), and that I had asked for him to drive (which is true). He continued to bug me, and I grew annoyed that he wouldn't respect the fact that I was "sketching out." Angry at him for trying to peer pressure me, and still bitter about the party several months ago, my cowardly and conniving sides joined forces and decided to go into the stall and pretend to swallow the pill. I put it in my pocket and told him I had taken it. True, it was cowardly of me, but when he went in and then chewed an ecstasy pill himself, I couldn't help but grin. For most of the way up to the rave, B was unsure if he wanted to try ecstasy, and was more excited about the possibility of finding LSD, which he really wanted to try. In effect, I had just manipulated him into not only driving me over an hour to get to a rave, but also into taking ecstasy alone.

I felt guilty, and a small part of me still wishes that I had tried the drug and stayed at the rave for a couple more hours. I don't actually feel very sheepish for chickening out, but the guilt arises from the fact that I lied to a friend. Still, I saw it as the only way out of his peer pressure.

When we drove back to town at one in the morning, we met with a friend, J, and gave him a pill that we had bought for him. We topped off the night by driving through the sparsely populated hills smoking pot (a "hilly") and going to Denny's. While at Denny's, I told J that I hadn't actually taken my pill while B was in the bathroom. We agreed that, since I still have my pill, we'll definitely need to roll in the near future.

Through all of this, I honestly don't know what to think. If I hadn't tricked B, I wouldn't have heard the end of it until I dropped the "e-bomb." If I had actually rolled as a response to his peer pressure, I would definitely feel far worse than I do now. If B ever finds out, he'll likely be mad, but I do not mind: he tried to pressure me into taking a drug that I did not wish to take at the time and he made my life a living hell following that drinking party months ago.

Rolling with J in the near future while B can't due to the fact that he took his ecstasy pill may be a sweet form of revenge. This entry is being posted so that I can look back and see how I felt about this in hindsight.

A good night to all reading this. Hopefully, the manipulating bastard that resides within me will not strike without justification in the future - and whether that bastard had justification this time is what I am currently trying to figure out.
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
12:15 am
last night i smoked a bunch of purple haze, got in bed, put on a black sleeping mask and just layed in bed for literally 4 hours listening to Tool. it was just...amazing.
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
11:19 am

A new rating community. But this one is different, This community is for stoners, drug users, and drinkers. A lot of these rating communities are a bunch of straight edge pussys who say no just because you do drugs. For the ones who do the damn do.
Join.. i_heart_cunts
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
12:24 pm
New Girl
I guess I'll get to the point:

My cousin (Sai) and I were heavily using coke about a year ago. The lack of care for anything other than the drug, somehow bonded us and made us codependent upon one another. Everyday was spent with one another and there was never a sober day. Our addictions esculated, and eventually we ran into some trouble.

It had been a long day full of pill popping and blazing and we decided to spend the day riding the bus to go watch a movie. We ran into a friend (Chris) who gave us some perkisets and valium. Sai took about 15, but I did none. At the time, pills weren't my thing, so for a couple of hours I was baby-sitting. It was about 7pm when we remembered that we had to be home for her sister's graduation. So we headed back that way on the bus, still chillin with Chris. Eventually we arrived at the school, but we weren't sure if we really wanted to go. In all honestly, either of us could care less about the graduation, the fact that there would be parties after was the only thing that appealed to us.

The day before, we had just gotten our hands on a quarter roll. So we figured a party would be a perfect place to bust out at. We asked around but didn't get lucky. So we waited for a little while, and Chris finally announced that this girl Vero was having a kick back. We decided we were going to head that way. We ended up hitch-hiking for lack of any other transportation. The guy who picked us up asked us if we wanted to blaze. So on our way to Vero's house we all hit the joint.

When we arrived, we literally ran out of the car. We were so eager to get wired! I don't even remember knocking on the door or coming inside and saying "hi" to everyone that was there. I just remember being in the garage, and watching everybody guzzle their 40's and pass the pipe. Within the first five minutes we starting laying out lines. But these weren't normal lines, they were about an inch across, an inch thick, and about 3 inches long. This was an usual high dose, but we thought we would be able to handle it.

We bragged about the amount we could do (eight balls in one sitting)for a little while and then we got to snorting. I let my cousin go first. She came up for a break, to catch her breath, but she finished it all. I saw her get up, eyes looking heavy. I didn't think anything of it. She took a seat and I started to do mine. I had barely snorted a 40 (at least that's what I believe I did) when I had to stop. My nose went completely numb, so I got up for a second and walked over to her side.

She looked like shit and for some reason it triggered a fear inside me. Her head was lying against metal chairs that were stacked on one another. For some reason, I felt the instinct to put something soft over them. I got a bed comforter from Vero and made her lay on it. I looked away and decided to try and finish my line but as soon as I sat down,I looked back and I could see her shaking. I got back up to see if she was okay, but she wasn't. She started siezuring and was about to hit the ground. Luckily I caught her before she could but I couldn't hold on because she was wigging out. Her body was shaking violently and I had to scream for help. Dom, Chris, and Vero came to my side, not knowing what to do.

Be it coincedence or a sign, the previous day I had also read a book on how to help someone if they O.D. particuarly siezure. So with the little knowledge I knew, I told Chris to place the bed comforter she had just been laying on, on the floor so that we could place her on it and not injure her head. All of us were assigned to a part of her body, I got her legs, Chris was holding her torso, and Dom was at her head making sure she didn't roll off onto the concrete floor of the garage.

We could feel her body burning up, and the only thing we could think of doing was give her water. All of us were disoriented and didn't know any better, so we pretty much poured in her mouth and started making her choke, when that happened we stopped. I began to blotch water onto her convulsing body. The whole time I was screaming, begging her not to leave me, not to die this way like she could hear me. At one point she stopped seizuring but she wasn't breathing either. I told Dom to give her mouth to mouth, and amazingly she had recieved air into the lungs. Her eyes sprung open and she started siezuring again. We followed the same process for about another half hour.

The whole time we all contemplated about calling the police. But it was a struggle because if they did come we would all be arrested for possession, and if my cousin did die, I'd be finished. I wasn't worried about myself though, so I told everyone that if the cops came that I would take all the blame. I told them to stick the coke in my bag, stick all the weed in my bag, stick all the pills in my bag. Just as long as my cousin didn't die. Fortunately Sai began to calm down and eventually came out of her siezure.

She sat there confused for a minute. Not knowing what had happened. She told us she had to throw up so we grabbed a bucket and watched the white fluid drain from her body through her mouth. I hugged her and kept going back and forth to get her some water, her throat outrageously dry. She was alright and that's all that mattered. We spent the rest of the night on the couch in Vero's living room, knowing that we couldn't go home. We stayed up in paranoia, worried that our parents would come looking for us but they didn't. At least not until morning, which is a different story in itself.

I can't say that things changed after that. The next morning she was doing a line.
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
10:30 pm
First Post (Newbie)
Oxycontin gave me SUCH a horrid hangover
the next day...the first and only time I
used it. I can't remember how many mg's
I took.It was one of the orange pills.

And every time I'm on adderall I write
something knew I can barely translate
when I'm sober again...

Guess I'll wait until I actually get
fucked up again to post an in depth story.
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
6:52 am
well i really dont have any thing to add here

Current Mood: bored
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
10:37 am
holy shit i think i qwn this community. i am the only person here. i am Stamped !!!!

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